there’s a bird out on the ledge i think it flew into the window i draw the shades and i forget it killing time with my nintendo spend my days just like i’m waiting for an invite to the party but i’m so tired of masturbating getting high and feeling sorry i am once again asking for you to send me a distraction i am lost to my own devices but that’s alright it’s a gold mind sometimes i think i’m treading water Just to find i’ve already gone under now i’m drinking whiskey in the shower washing my hands and wondering if we’ll ever get out cause i’m afraid to go outside and i’m afraid to say goodnight what if i wake up tomorrow and don’t feel fine i am once again asking for you to send me a distraction i am lost to my own devices i am once again calling to say i’m fine but i’m falling apart no alarms and no surprises but that’s alright it’s a gold mind

when i wake up i check my feed it’s got that content that i need and if i have a thought but no one reads it then what’s the point of thinking it having fun with friends online can make me feel like life is fine i crave that validation all the time so what’s the point of faking it [and when i see a butt i feel no pain at all] here’s some things i’m gonna eat [like like like like] i’m sharing all of my favorite memes [like like like like] screaming into the void about my feelings i have no mouth and i must tweet [i’m not mad i’m actually laughing] i’ll never log off i’ll never log off i’ll never log off i’ll never log off i’ll never log off i’ll never log off until i’m dead

O, Modern World! You make it hard to celebrate a single thing It’s so much worse knowing how it all works And I’ve been studying the blueprints To the mechanism we’ve been building Price tags hanging off of everything you Love and funneling to evil men but What we have belongs to no one else You and I have some things in common We’re both scared and we both stopped running How about it now, how about it now We don’t need any new construction Just you and me and the means of production How about it now, how about it now The one joy we’re still allowed Hey, Blotter Girl I hear you’ve broken every window in this town I never learned how to make empires burn But I’ve still got your book of matches Would you believe that you and I are in it? Once you offered hotter conversation I was shivering from expectation Afraid to lose the precious spark of our youth But there is hope And you’re the proof Some kinda taste lingers in your mouth Whenever we kiss Salt left behind from a boiled ocean Turned into mist When I’m with you I can see a future Better than this So much better than this

got some cheetos and a gobbler half tank of gas and some tylenol got an icee spiked with whiskey another scratch-off where i didn’t win anything at all and i saw my high school teacher in a faded green day t-shirt does she remember me at all well you haven’t texted lately and i’ve been losing you daily nothing good can happen after 3 am i’m getting drunk in the wawa parking lot again [woo!]

We were good kids, and now we’re shitty adults We never got in any trouble so we never learned what trouble was And when it came to call we let it right in We were generous hosts Oh what a good fit: Kind intent, ill result When they sifted through the rubble our blood was underneath its claws Yeah it tore us apart but we survived it Now we’re turnpike ghosts And it all makes sense When you play it back from where it ends We were always meant to be here Great shot, kid! You blew it again Prove your rivals right, disappoint your friends Cuz you never want it badly enough (Never want it badly enough) No you never want it badly enough Great shot, kid! A swing and a miss Travel back in time, meet your own damn fist Cuz you never want it badly enough (Never want it badly enough) Started out with too much, you were never gonna give it up We were rich kids And we were stupid as hell We were willfully indifferent, blind to the sins of wealth Yeah we were cozy and numb and we fit right in Until we left home I can’t escape it No I know it too well That dull suburban sickness, the craving for a comfortable couch Oh snap me out of the spell Let me out! Let me out! Let me out! One day they’re gonna ask us where it went Why are we still here when our time’s been spent? We were always slaves to our fear Great shot, kid! You blew it again Prove your rivals right, disappoint your friends Cuz you never want it badly enough (Never want it badly enough) No you never want it badly enough Great shot, kid! A swing and a miss Travel back in time, meet your own damn fist Cuz you never want it badly enough (Never want it badly enough) Started out with too much, you were never gonna give it up (Lucky thing nobody ever gets what they deserve) (Lucky thing nobody ever gets what they deserve) (Lucky thing nobody ever gets what they deserve) (Lucky thing nobody ever gets what they deserve) Well I can’t unlearn the things I’ve learned But now I know it’s a lucky thing Nobody gets what they deserve You never want it badly enough (You never want it badly enough) No you never want it badly enough Great shot, kid! You know what you did? Took a fighting chance for your soul to live Cuz you never want it badly enough (You never want it badly enough) Started out with too much, you were never gonna give it up credits